First Day Jitters

Random thoughts......no rhyme or reason to them, just writing:

The first day of school is next week.

I'm afraid.

I get like this every year: The jitters, the cold sweats, the lack of sleep, the tears that quickly turn into sudden bursts of energy to get things done, the laughter at myself for being so silly, the nervousness for the babies that I had last year to do well in middle school.........

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a wreck.

Yes, I'm an awesome teacher.  Yes, I get like this every year.  Yes, this begins my tenth year teaching.  And YES, I'm STILL a wreck.

Sigh.

Tears are falling NOW! I've got butterflies in my stomach.  My migraine is threatening to come back. I don't care HOW old I am, HOW many degrees I get, or HOW many times I hear "Good job", I'm still gonna wonder if I'm good enough for THIS bunch of kids.

No sympathy needed....just me blabbing.
But, I came across this quote:
“Successful teachers are effective in spite of the psychological theories they suffer under.”

Well, darn.  Sucked my tears right up.  Regardless of what I'm feeling, if I'm gonna be successful, I've got to shake any hindrances off.  And I'm GOING to be successful at teaching this new bunch; best believe that!

I can do this!!!!!!!!!!!

Those salty reminders of humanness will probably come back at least thrice until I actually see the batch of babies that I'm getting. I'm not quite ready for 'em, but it's ok.  Put me in, Coach. :)

Lemme go throw these Kleenex tissues away,

Jenn